
The ole Christmas spirit took a bit more of a hit this morning when the hubby commented that he was thinking of going over to his mother's house on Christmas. Now...I don't have anything against him visiting his mother......BUT.....we already HAD Christmas with her. HIS family is the one that decided we would meet a couple of weeks before Christmas. So.....why does there have to be a "round two?"
Why...even more so....does he continue to think that I "might" want to go with him???? I just don't get it. He was slipping in the "we" word. Wouldn't you think that at some point - he would realize --- that continuing to do this is causing problems? Wouldn't it be easier to just say, "Honey, I understand you two don't get along - so don't worry about going with me - I just want you to be happy."
Okay, so I'm dreaming. Anyway, somewhere around 11 am this morning my stomach went into a giant knot and my concentration left and I've been feeling a 'fight or flight' feeling all day ever since. What little Christmas spirit I had...at the moment...has vanished. I don't even want to finish putting up the decorations and at the moment there is still a Christmas tree sitting in the living room with no decorations and only lights. I'm not very inspired to work on it. I just want to go off somewhere and have a good cry....maybe until it's January 2nd and all this is over.






