Christmas In the Air....Music Everywhere....but Here...

I'm going to try to put up some holiday decorations today. I have to confess, however, that my heart is not really in it.

I don't remember when the last time was that I have actually enjoyed this time of year. It's always too rushed. My beginning of the year expectations have all crashed and burned, money always seems to be too tight, and then there is the "dealing with the In-laws."

I'm not sure how the in-law thing is going to work this year though. We normally have a get-together this weekend, but my sister-in-law (who does the planning) remarked that she didn't think we were having one this year. Since she plans the event....I'm not sure what's up with that? I suspect that my other sister-in-law has informed the group that she is not participating because of me.

You may recall back in May that she and I had words at her mother's birthday party. If you don't recall...well, we did and she apparently said some rather unpleasant things about me to my husband...so that may have something to do with the cancellation of the festivities.

Anyway, I'm not 100% in the "Grinch-mode," but I'm not loving those J-I-N-G-L-E Bells either. Instead, there is sort of a "let's get this thing over with" feeling that has me eyeing January 2nd with anticipation. I want that clean slate. I want that opportunity to start things again. And this time....I want to do it all differently. We'll see....